A WEE PEEK – “…At that moment, I felt that deep impression within saying, “yes, I do delay healing for my plans and my purposes.” My apparent friend had been wrong and my experience at the conference had been right and then everything fell back into place again…”
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An Attack by a Friend
PERSONAL TESTIMONY SERIES
After the Christian conference, it was time to get back into the swing of things and the word I’d had before, it’s not your time yet, was holding me up nicely and after everything I’d been through, it was so good to feel good. When the first Sunday service came around, all of the members who’d visited the conference were asked if they’d like to come up and share about things God had done or said during that time. There were some amazing stories, some which I’d been a part of and others I knew nothing about and it really spurred me on, to go up and share about what God had said to me.
Everyone knew what I’d been through and it was great to see the faces of my friends feeling joyful, instead of struggling as I shared the big word, ‘It’s not your time yet.’ Afterward, we had a great time of prayer and fellowship, right up until the moment, where an apparent Christian friend said to me, “Steven, God would never delay healing.” It was the complete opposite of the experience I’d had with God but I was in a weakened state, unable to shrug it off. Once she’d said this, she turned around and off she went, leaving me with my foundation in tatters. It was really hard and that evening was going to be some night of seeking God.
That night, I sat on the bed with the “it’s not your time yet” revelation on one side and the “God doesn’t delay healing” on the other, wondering which one had been God. I was very frustrated, this word had boosted me up and was helping me recover, but if the opposite were true, maybe I should have gone up for healing. I was angry, so I did what I’d only ever done a couple of times before, was to sit and open my bible to a completely random page and it fell on the account of Lazarus. Without even reading I knew what it meant, from the time of Jesus being told about Lazarus till the time he raised him from the dead was four days.
At that moment, I felt that deep impression within saying, “yes, I do delay healing for my plans and my purposes.” My apparent friend had been wrong and my experience at the conference had been right and then everything fell back into place again. I knew God was using this illness to change my character. To remove the fierceness & anger, the pride & arrogance and the fear which controlled a large portion of who I was. And when I saw those broken character traits, I was all the more relaxed in the trial and even today I’d say, I would never trade those experiences, never…
BLOG BLURB – The next article will contain the account of being delivered of that fierceness and anger!